Never Enough

By August Love

If I never told you I'm telling you now. Your love was never enough. 

I always yearned for more. Like a half empty stomach in front of an empty plate. 

What you had was never enough. 

I suffered in silence like a victim without speech. You deprived me, a plane with no fuel. You abandoned me like a childless parent. 

I knew from the beginning I would be unsatisfied, that you could never fill my cup. That you would never be enough. 

I knew I would love you and suffer all the while. 

Your effort trumped my unfulfilled soul. I latched on to you as you depleted my being. 

I feared without me you would not prevail. 

I stroked your ego and blessed all of your dreams. 

I dimmed my own light so your light could beam. 

In retrospect I now know that I was so wrong to make myself weak so you could be strong. 

I poured into you as you drained from me.

I wish I knew then what I know now. I swam in you and now I have drowned.

August Love loves spending time with friends one on one or small groups yet jumps at the opportunity to deliver a presentation or give a speech. She is socially selective but loves to network. She has zero tolerance for cliques, ass kissing, and phony people.

She is a creative and innovate leader who occasionally reads her poems at open mic night. She volunteers her time to create platforms for Black people. She is committed to Black empowerment, Black pride, Black excellence and Black progress. 

August's hobbies include traveling, patronizing and promoting Black businesses. She loves ice wine, going to the beach, and empowering others.